catch up

I haven't written in a while so lets see.. Well for the poker thing, Im doing pretty well at the home game. I have been placing the past few weeks. Dominating really.. not really but I have made some good plays, some good laydowns.. a bunch of correct decisions. Normally playing no limit (NL) it only takes one mistake to end the night and end up being the beer bitch or the dealing slut until the next game starts. That is the only real motivation for not making some more risky plays. The pay outs aren't what it is about at this game because the buy in is so small.. its really more about ego, bragging rights and not being the beer bitch.
Life in general is pretty good I suppose. I have still had some really bad days but even 'normal people' have those. Right? I tell you, I haven't really enjoyed music in a long time. That is really unusual since I play guitar but nothing has sparked my interests. Well when I play poker online or if Im just browsing I have been listening to XM. Wow, it is really cool, I actually like music again. Im an alternative.. alternative.. that word just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Who says they are alternative anymore, really? I like mostly 90's music and classic rock stuff, not to mention metal. So from 311 to Zepplin I pretty much got it covered. So playing guitar amazingly has become more frequent in my life again. Well I suck now. It sucks but its true. I cant sing half the songs I used to.. I can only play half the songs I know, half as well as I used to. Remember before when I was talking about words looking weird.. well "used" looks really funky right now. Moving on.
Im still out of work. Not like Im trying too hard to find a job actually. I haven't really been motivated despite the improvement in my attitude. I just hate thinking about starting over again, only to find myself a year or two from now in the same place again. I feel like Im just going to have to pick a pony and ride it and in the mean time and try to focus when Im off work to really find my purpose.
I have been really enjoying Netflix. It is a cool deal that everyone should do. Tivo is going to revolutionize the nation too. It has been around for a while but I think people are finally catching on. I dont have it, but it would be sweet if I did. Anyway cruising netflix is one of my favorite things to do right now. I have seen a crap load of movies. I hate to think about all the hours I have wasted in my life watching movies. I have almost 500 movies rated at netflix and I have seen pretty much everything in the top 100.